Pneumothorax...not.

A lot has been going on over this two weeks.

spent New Year's Day at taksheng's place, had BBQ with the usual people. mad fun, food and booze. lots of food prepared by weiyuan, the mad dancing and I think the 4 of us finished off 1 and a half bottle of Absolut. and somebody merlion-ed. (not me. wahahahas!) stayed behind when the rest left so I can see wh home but she slept until so late that I gave in at 10+am and went to sleep too. left tak's place at 1+pm.

went home to change then went to collect Klub Party's tickets. met the mother and sister for lunch and a little shopping. finally Gmasked my itouch! I wanted the anti-war skin lah, but it's brown and the person said when print out it'll turn "slight tinge of green". I asked for demo and the whole thing was green can. -.-" so I chose this other cute skin but I didn't know it was for iPhone! now my itouch looks like iPhone wannabe. -.-"

went to watch Bodyguards and Assassins with junjin, aloysius and kynaston after that. I think the movie's not bad. tried to catch the last bus back and felt a little tired. my body was starting to feel a little painful but I thought it was from the lack of sleep.

woke up on sunday morning, whole body in pain. every breath hurts, every step hurts. I couldn't even sit at the laptop for long, went to lie in bed. I thought I'll sleep it out but jj persuaded me to see a doctor and accompanied me to TTSH. I can't believe I took public transport there. you have no idea the underpass from Novena MRT Station to TTSH was this long and every step hurt so I slowly 'crawled' my way there. reached there at 6pm, the walk-in clinic was closed for dinner until 7pm. slept at subway for that hour, feeling damn bad.

I don't understand why do everyone goes to the A&E department and wait for 3 hours for small ailments when there's a walk-in clinic and nobody inside. I was like the 2nd patient there and there were only 3 people. why do you people think A&E is "faster" and jam up the queue there when there are people who genuinely need the services there? why waste the resources? I hate this kind of people.

the doctor was like, "you felt pain when you woke up? why did you come see me only now!?" he thought it was pneumothorax (I had no idea what he was talking about. it was in short, punctured lung) and he explained what it was. I was fxxking shocked lah! he said I have to go A&E immediately and do X-ray to confirm. if it is, they have to insert a needle into my body to poke the tissue surrounding the lung to release the trapped air. if it's serious, they'll have to do a minor surgery on me and insert a chest tube. wtf!?

i took the referral letter and go A&E. so many people! apparently pneumothorax must be something serious because once they read my letter, I skipped the long queue and was put on a bed and pushed to the X-ray room immediately. thank god the X-ray result came out and a doctor took 1 look at it and said it isn't. so I joined the queue at the room for the next 2 hours. the room is like carpark la, the beds all park side by side one. the room inside even better, got parking lots for the beds one. there was a lot of drama going on inside. hahas. the doctor said they've no idea what it is, most likely muscle strain or inflammation of the joints and sent me home with painkillers. apparently they "treat symptomatically" and since my pain went away after painkillers, so they gave me more and sent me home. nice.

I got ATT C 2 days and ATT B 2 days after that. first time on status after 9 months in the army. I kinda like being on status, since I don't have to do anything but I don't like the part where I am genuinely sick and needed the rest.

i am feeling much better now but am now down with sore throat, slight flu and still feeling a little weak at times. =/

so last week, I found out something that I wish i didn't had to find out this way. I am more sad by the way I found out than the news itself. I mean, if you had bothered to tell me if you treated me as a close friend, I would have congratulated you and gave you my blessings. looks like not only are the feelings non-reciprocal, the same goes for the way we treat each other.

all the best on this one.

everyone deserves some love.

thank you to everyone who was concerned about me and wished me well!

heartless. "fail."

I should have known better.